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Twenty-four months ago today I was laying in a hotel bed watching an ice skating exhibition at about 2 am in Taipei, Taiwan. I couldn't sleep because I was so nervous ~ that day I was going to meet my 17 month old son for the first time. I will never forget that scared cry he gave or those sad eyes he looked at me with. I felt like I was causing him so much pain. I wondered if he would ever forgive me. It didn't take long. I'm pretty sure he has forgiven us! He only looks at me with those sad eyes now if I tell him no more chocolate.

Our adoption agency that we used for Zane's adoption asks for an update each year. I hope that his birth family does check in to see how he is doing. I hope that they know that he is loved and the happiest little dude ever! I didn't think that I could love his birth family (or Jaedon and Mattie's) anymore, but my experience this last year really opened my eyes to the great strength that those moms had to have. I have never met those three women - but I love them.